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| okay so I thought maybe i would update...It has been quite a while since I actually wrote more than a few words. I have been super busy and what little time I have had to waste on the computer has been done so on myspace! : ) Anyway I am so glad that school is almost out...just a few more tests and papers and essays! Then I get my tonsils out...ouch...then I go on a trip with my family and get a new puppy...lost two dogs in the last month, I cried! Then it is off to the camp!!! I am so excited! Things have been busy and a little difficult lately, but still good! First one dog died, then the other one ran away, then my dad had surgery, then I found out I have to have surgery, then we find out that one of the members of our church board and a close friend has been diagnosed with cancer and give three months to live...just to name a few! All of these things have been stressful, but God is bigger than all of it! Sometimes that is hard to remember, but it is so true! We have to trust Him and believe His word even when we don't understand things!
I have been pretty disappointed in myself lately, I have been complacent and lazy, but as I looked at my failures and shorcomings I was reminded once again that it is not about me, it is about Jesus. Yes I need to be diligent and press into the things of God but it still isn't about me. I don't know if that makes sense, but it is like when I focus on God and His plans and purposes then I stop dwelling on the fact that I didn' t take quiet time this morning, instead I realize that there is smoething much bigger going on than just me and my imperfections. There is a dying and hurting world that needs to be reached out to and there is a powerful and almighty God that is working in the nations! Then I suddenly have a desire and a urgency to read the Bible and to pray! it is not about perfecting myself but reather about being a willing sacrifice for the Lord. About loving and serving people and showing them the love of Christ! it may not make sense to you all, but to me it is such a revelation and a wake up call!! God is so stinkin awesome! He is so faithful and he continually shows me things even when I am not fully doing my part!!
Well I guess this is a long enough post! I hope you all have an amazingly blessed weekend and a lovely week!! Love you all!! | | |
| Love NEVER fails!
Where we are weak He is strong!
His Grace is sufficient!
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| Do you ever feel like you are faliling terribly at the things that matter the most? | | |
| Well I don't have a lot to say but I thought I should update...
God is so awesome! Always the same yesterday, today and forever, the rock that we can lean on even when everything around us is changing or uncertain!
Friends are so special and it is so nice to be able to get together with an old friend and talk as though no time had passed...To know that you both really care about eachother and always will no matter how many miles separate you or how many days you spend apart.
I feel different and I don't really know why, but it is a good feeling. I am still the same me, but I just feel more solid. It sounds cheesey but I am finally discovering who I am...I feel solid in my walk with God, I know I have more growing to do each and every day for the rest of my life but I just feel different. God has really been working in my heart the past couple years and it is good change. I don't think anyone would really notice by looking at me or by talking to me, but I know I am different on the inside. | | |
| Happy Valentines Day!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!
If i didn't send you a text I am sorry, I may not have had your number..but you are still loved very much!
It is amazing how special a simple gesture like the receiving of a heart shaped chocolate can make you feel when it comes from someone you love. I know a lot of times I don't really think a lot about valentines day because I don't have a boyfriend and I have never really had a romantic relationship, but today I got a few valentines day presents: fudge and a prettily decorated muffin in a pretty basket from the lady I babysit for, flowers from my Daddy (so special) and a chocolate from my adopted grandma...and these simple gifts made me feel so special and so loved. And suddenly I was very sad that I had not thought ahead and gotten gifts and cards for the people that I care about! So i sent everyone texts messages telling them howmuch I love them! lol...those who I had a cell phone number for! Still it is like I always wish I could do more just so that people could understand how much they mean to me and so that they could know how much I love them! Then again all the wonderful gifts in the world don't mean a lot if I do not treat people with love on a daily basis. So that is more important. I am praying that God will help me be more loving each and everyday, even when I don't feel like it, because it is amazing how much a smile or a helping hand can brighten your day! I want to be selfless, but right now I have a long way to go I mean sometimes I even care about someone because they care about me in return...
I encourage you all to read I Corinthians 13 today! It tells us how to live and it reminds us of the amazing and incomparable love that God has for us! And I think it is so amazing that love NEVER fails! That is so encouraging!
Spread the love...a lot of people in the world need a lot of loving!
I know in a way Valentines day is just another day, but it is a day that reminds us of the importance of love! | | |
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